breaks_destiny | 018th Shattering * Audio / Action

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018th Shattering * Audio / Action

[Filtered to Shiki || 100% Unhackable]

Shiki... You have known Minato for a long while, right? Can... Can we talk in private about something?

[What is he doing? What is he doing? But Shiki's the only one he can think of to ask to... Will it serve for anything? He's not sure. He doesn't know but... He needs to talk with someone and he can only think of her right now.]

[Filtered to Hughes & Adell || 100% Unhackable]

Sorry to bother you both but, can I talk with you? There's been something in my mind lately and I would like your opinions on the matter.

[Adell because he has been here for longer and is the leader of the Blue Rogues. Hughes because he trusts the man's opinion and is an adult and the closest thing to his father he has here. Right now, Keiichi would love to be able to have his father around to ask him.]

[Filtered from Minato Arisato & Haruhi Suzumiya || 50% Unhackable]

[This is a filter he fails with, he doesn't want to hide from Minato but... He really can't bring himself to face him now. So he tries to do a filter and ends doing a shitty job because he can't concentrate on it. Haruhi... Gets added only because of the subject he's going to bring up.]

So, New Feathers, are you guys settling in? Anyone needs help with anything? My name's Keiichi Maebara and if I can I wouldn't mind to help you guys. I hope you're not having too much of a rough time getting used to this place.

For the rest, anyone planning anything for White Day? Or did the experiment screw up with the will to do anything about it?

[Once he sets off the messages, Keiichi will take up to wander around the village. He hasn't dropped by Minato's house since he met Junpei yesterday, he just doesn't know how to look at Minato so he has chosen to avoid him for a bit. He will dedicate his day to visit the flowershop, remembering that girl turned into an airship from the experiment back in January, it has been a while since it happened but... February was too chaotic for him to remember that he wanted to check on her. He will also drop by the Welcome Center to help anyone who may need it there. And the library.

Other than that he may get caught almost anywhere in the village.]

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[There's no explanation that can be given anyway. What explanation can there be? People live. People die. It's how things are, there's no explanation, but there's grief. So he just keeps crying there.]

[But he's here. And when you're done grieving he still will be.]

It's not fair...

[It's still not fair. It probably will keep not being fair no matter how much he complains.]

It's not.

[because... he would have wanted to do those things too. Meet up with Keiichi when he's an adult and be friends in spite of it. Maybe even visit Hinamizawa. There are so many things he can't do, but at the same time so many things he can just by being in Luceti at all.]

Now I really don't want to ever leave this place.

[He finally returns the hug, he needs it now.]

[...]

As long as you're here, I'm staying too.

[that's fair enough, right?]

Yeah... You better, or I'll go hunt you and drag you here.

[He will find a way to do it. He found a way to save Rika, he shattered destiny. He can do that too. Maybe he can't revive him but he can at least drag him here, right?]

Same goes for you.

Good luck with that. You won't be even a fetus if I go back.

[It's said with a slightly bitter tone, but he can't help it. It's just not fair.]

Watch me.

[even if it takes storming the Malnosso HQ or something.]

[He laughs a bit, finally the tears stop. There's still grief and all but... For now he stops.]

I would have preferred to learn it from you though.

...I know.

[but he lets it hang. Keiichi understands why he didn't, right? How would that conversation even go... 'Good morning, by the way I'm dead back home.']

I thought we could talk about anything.

[He understands but...]

...I don't want to say things that just make you sad.

[Okay, enough with the hug, Keiichi squirms and frowns at Minato.]

Whoever would want to say things like that? But there are things that have to be said. You think I liked it when I told you about my world? About what Rika had gone through, about the times I had died or killed?

I know. [Keiichi :/ but he releases him when he starts trying to push away.] It doesn't make it any easier to do.

Why not? Either way, whether you tell me or someone else did, I would end sad and hurt. And I hate it, I hate the idea that my best friend is someone whom I can only reach to while being here, because either he's not born or he's dead back home. But it's how things are and I know you well enough to honestly not be entirely surprised by it. If I'm going to end hurt either way, it would have been better if you did it yourself.

[He just.... goes quiet. He knows all that Keiichi, are you going to beat him up for being too chicken to spoil your hopes?]

[The silence makes him fall silent too. He's angry but not with Minato or with anyone just... With life in general. Honestly he doesn't know if it would have been better if Minato shot his hopes down earlier or by himself, but... This hurts so much that there can't be many things that can compare.]

...I'll tell you whatever you want to know, Keiichi.

[Is there even more? Keiichi whines and just flops to the floor.]

It's easy to say that. Sure, go and say that you'll answer whatever I ask. But I don't know what to ask, I don't want to have to ask. If you don't want to tell me I don't want to ask but I don't want to learn about it from others either.

I just want to know about you. And I want to tell you about me. Not about the girls, or Hinamizawa. About me.

That's still 'whatever you want.'

[hey don't fall on the floor, at least use a couch. But Minato closes and locks the door to this apartment (so some random neighbor won't walk in wondering what is going on) and then sinks to the floor next to him.] Then I'll tell you, if you'll listen.

[The floor is comfortable right now, okay?]

Of course I'll listen. Why wouldn't I?

[...

Well, you want him to open up, so he will.]

Whenever people heard my family died, they pitied me. But saying 'poor thing' doesn't change what happened. I didn't want that. [they weren't the ones affected, after all. But they still wanted to dictate his feelings, without actually considering them.]

I got used to not saying anything at all. If no one knew, no one could treat me different. If I didn't care, neither would they.

[Well, that makes sense. It's indeed what people tend to do but just saying things doesn't change anything. He nods, honestly he supposes he would end doing the same thing if he had been in Minato's case.]

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